Almost two weeks ago, I did something I thought would be nearly impossible. I stopped working on Nerd News, and Nerd News related things, because I didn’t have anything positive to say. Watching the events from Charlottesville unfold became too much for me, and I completely shut down. I rarely hopped onto Facebook, and if it wasn’t to live tweet with the latest episode of Lucha Underground, Twitter was non-existent to me. I couldn’t bear to read another word from someone defending the acts of racism and cowardice that were perpetrated that day. To see that the more things seemed to change, in reality, they’ve stayed the same.
It was heartbreaking for me to be alive in 2017, but get a glimpse into what life would’ve been like in 1957. How would I as a parent explain to my kids the whats and whys behind this rally? How could people actually rationalize this, and defend it under the guise of free speech? As these thoughts and more raced through my mind, I became more and more jaded until I finally decided to simply log off. One day turned into two, two turned into five, and then before I knew it I hadn’t written anything for a week.
As the days went by, there was an onslaught of tech news, and goodies that ideally I should’ve been writing about, but I simply couldn’t bring myself to log back on. At this point, I was fully engulfed in a funk that I had become somewhat comfortable being in. As the hours passed, more and more news began to break, and I continued along with my willful neglect. Around the ten-day mark, I was probably at the lowest point I’d hit in a while and I actually started to consider never coming back. I’d started to think that maybe I was feeling this way because I’d began to spend TOO MUCH time online. Perhaps I needed to entertain the idea of a more permanent hiatus to shake this haze I was entrapped in. Going “off the grid” began to sound more and more enticing. Why? Because the insanity of the world doesn’t exist if you don’t let it.
Late last night, I was having a conversation with a friend, and I happened to start scrolling through my pictures stored in Google Photos. It was during my stroll down memory lane that I had a pretty huge epiphany, and something that broke the prison of anger and self-doubt I’d locked myself in. Over the course of the last 6 years, I’ve had the pleasure of meeting tons of new people, from all different walks of life, through Nerd News. Whether it be attending a Comic Con, or through conversations online, the community that I’d embraced, the Nerds of the world represented the exact opposite of what I’d been seeing. This community of people, more diverse than the UN, is one of inclusion rather than exclusion. People come together regardless of color, creed, or gender because of shared interests, and a general love of tech, gadgets, and whatever else.
Rolling through those photos gave me the insight and motivation I needed to return to doing what I love to do. I realize that my site, my words, and my videos, aren’t fueling hated speech, or some sort of radical agenda. Regardless of how many people see my articles, or how many views my videos get, I get to be a part of an ever-growing community focused on bridging the gap, rather than enforcing them. I get to help fuel friendly debates, or give people something to talk about other than the insanity that is real life right now. For that, I am truly thankful.
So why am I writing this? Possibly as a way of venting to whoever may read this, who may be in need of some words of encouragement. Maybe this is my way of putting more positivity out there and to let everyone that felt that wave of negative emotion know, that we can change things. The positivity is out there, it’s still alive, and no matter how much fear and hatred gets shoved down our throats, love and happiness still exist. We get to choose these things.
And so, at the end of the day, I have decided to not only end my digital silence, but to work even harder than before to provide you all with the Nerd News that you’ve come to love and enjoy. To show you all the wonder and excitement that new technology brings. To be a beacon in an increasingly dark world. To embrace our differences by showcasing our mutual interests.
Thank you all for your support in the past, thank you for your continued support, and let’s move this thing forward!